Saturday, October 27, 2012

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Day 10: Symbol

Basically anything "winnie-the-pooh" reminds me of Cole and Breanna.  It started with us decorating their room in a winnie the pooh theme, then when they died we searched for something winnie the pooh to go in their casket with them. Shortly after their death I saw "peek-a-pooh"s  and started a collection. I also have a accumulated a large collection of winnie the pooh stuffed animals. In general I usually get Pooh bear stuff as a reminder of Cole and Eeyore stuff as a reminder of Breanna.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Day 9: Special Place

I associate our cottage with part of the healing process for the loss of Cole and Breanna.  We bought the cottage a few months after they died and it gave me something positive to focus on. It made me start thinking positively about our future and making plans. It's such a nice place to quietly relax and I was able to spend time doing my puzzles.

Day 8: Jewellrey

Day 6: What Not to Say & Day 7: What to say

See my post entitled "Caution Grieving Mother; Enter at own risk"

Day 5: Memorial

This is a memorial garden I created in the backyard for Cole and Breanna.

Day 4: Treasured Item

The items I most treasure are their photographs. To me it feels like proof of their existance. The one photograph I am most thankful for is the one I took of them together the day before their burial. Because Cole and Breanna were born at different hospitals this was the only opportunity I had to see them together.  I remember thinking at the time that it is extremely morbid of me to take pictures of my dead babies but I am so thankful that I did.
I also treasure their hand and foot prints. Again it feels like proof of their existence. I am so thankful that the hospitals took the time to create these mementos that I will treasure forever.

Day 3: After Loss Self Portrait

May 24th 2008, the BFO's Walk to Remember. This was our first event we attended just weeks after Cole and Breanna died.

Day 2: Before Loss Self Portrait

My wedding day! This was me before all the pregnancy craziness started in my life.

Day 1: Sunrise

Capture Your Grief

I can't sleep!!! I have been up since 3am and have been surfing the web trying to find .... i don't know what... but I can't find it.  Anyhow, Carly Marie (the Austrialian lady that write's baby's names in the sand) has started a new project in commemoration of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month and I've been noticing it on people's facebook.  It's 31 photographs, one for each day of  October, to capture your grief. So even though I'm a few days late in starting I'm going to jump on the bandwagon and see how long I